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Hey peeps and Assalamualaikum to all Muslim reader. I think its been a long time i didn't open or update my blog. I'm too busy with other things such as relationship, school, family, friends, examinations. Too many commitment. Blergh >.< Seriously i miss my baby blog. I'm sorry baby cause had abandon you :'( LOL enough with this stupid drama.
Truth is, i'm in a sad mood right now. I had a big fight with her last night. I cried so badly, punching the wall and smack my head at the wall till i got a massive headache. Well nice right? Luckily i didn't have enough energy to find a knife. If not, i'm sure i already cut my wrist. ForYourInformation, i didn't eat anything since Sunday's evening till now. Someone ask me to eat last night and i said ok but i lied to her. Actually i didn't even move my ass from my fucking bed. Hahaha sorry babe, i HAD to lie to you cause i don't want you to worry bout me Hm. ByTheWay, thanks a lot babe cause cared bout me and always ask me either i'm okay or not whenever i'm sad or had problem. Really appreciate it :')
Too much hurt/pain i feel yesterday. I went home early because of period pain and i didn't take my Addmath Paper 2. Go die bitchachos, i hate you addmath -.-t . I rolling on the floor, screaming like a mad person and slap Tipsy a few times cause i can't stand the pain! Then my dad come home bringing 3 types of medicines. Which is Panadol Menstrual, Painkillers and i-don't-know-what-medicine-is-that. I eat 2 tablets of Panadol Menstrual and lay down on my bed. I fell asleep. When i wake up, i'm no longer feel the pain. Thank God! Then i text her like usual and tweeting. I were stalking her. Then i saw one of her classmates mention her "kenapa ni haus?" and her friend also tweet "HAUS HAUS HAUS". What the fuck is that? I don't get it but my mind started to think negatively. If put H at the back of the word, it will be that boy's name right? *long sigh*. Then she ask for her phone number cause she want to ask something. I check her DM and there's her friend's number and second number which is i don't know who's number is that. But i can feel that is the boy's number. I get upset but i didn't told her anything. Suddenly we had a fight. She said i were moody with her. Then we had a talk on text. I ask her either she have feelings towards that boy and her is answer is just "tak lah". I ask her again and she gave the same answer. She didn't even convinced me by saying "sumpah demi Allah". Usually she will swear when i ask her a same question twice but this time she didn't. Suddenly she change topic and said "tapi diorang cakap pasal pengkid dalam kelas, then diorang cakap 'couple sejenis takkan kekal tak kira betapa sweet betapa lama pon'. Hm it's true right?". I don't know what to respond so i just said "hhmm if tak kekal pon kenapa?". Then we talk bout it. I'm very sad think bout that fact so i ignored her. She called me and she said "You tak fikir ke family you? I bukannya nak tinggalkan you sekarang pon. Maybe dalam 20 tahun akan datang. You tak takut mati ke?". What the fuck dude. I know the fact! No need to said those things to me. It hurts me! My heart feels like being stabbed for a thousands time. Cause last time we talk bout it, she cried and she said she didn't want to get married, she want to be with me forever. Now what? Her words changed drastically. And that's what hurt me the most. I tweet randomly and suddenly i saw her bestfriend's tweet. They were mad at me and they said i were insane. Shut up, you guys didn't know what i feel and why i get upset with Syirun. You guys thought i wanna force syirun to stay with me till we were dead eh? No, i'm not that crazy yet although i love her to the fullest. I talk honestly with syirun, i told her bout my promises to myself that i made from the first day she accept me as her boyfriend. I even told my bestfriends bout that promises. Then we were okay. Suddenly she tweeted "He said 'syirun yang comel' ahaha he's so funny". I was like "what the fuck?!!!! Dia text dengan siapa ni?! Fucker!". I ask her about it and she said THAT BOY. So what i think just now is true. She ask that boy's number! I get mad and i scold her. I'm so stressed up when i think bout it. I couldn't believe it. She ask for a guy's number. She didn't think or care bout my feelings. I guess she didn't love me anymore *long sigh*. And that is the reason why i cried so badly, i punch the wall and smack my head on the wall. The end.