Pronto. Eyin for short. Euthymic. Strive to win a war. Things that i wrote in this blog can be a true story and can be just one of my fantasy. What's written in entry, let it stay right there. No need to talk bout it. Feel unpleasant with my story? Just click cross at top of your tab.

My obsession.

I feel alive when i'm with her but it doesn't mean anything if she didn't feel the same. Am i not good enough for you? *sigh* Right now, i just want to be happy and enjoy my life. No more "her" so that there'll be no more hurt and heartbreak episode. Never ever again. I'll give her peaceful life that she wish for. I'll play the ignorance game from now onwards. Let my love to her fading with time and space that she used to hold before to be empty. Let ou(nimportant)r memories vanish by itself.


Today will be a new chapter of my life where the role is just me, family, bestfriends, friends, books and foods. Well, food is included cause i'm in a long distance relationship with him ;) I love you food, to the moon and back. Hahaha. So mm yeah, chin up and lets face the pathetic society and the golden years of earth with smile. I know i can live without her. First love wasn't exist in my dictionary.

F R I E N D. In this world there's so many types of friend. But in my surrounding, i've two type of friends. First, the "unsincere, backstabber, talking bad" one. Second, the "good, nice, supportive" one. I'm sick and tired to entertain the first type of friend. I respect her, be nice with her, sincerely befriend with her but what did i get in returns? A fucking knife stabbed right on my chest. It's not the first time she did that to me. She used to hurt me before and now she did it again. What kind of friend are you babe? You should ask for my explanation first before attack or hurting me with your words. You didn't even know the full story but yet you already mad at me. I know you're just trying to be a protective friend of your "bestfriend" but this isn't the correct way to do it. My patience have its own limit. You know what, i'm so done with this shit and i've lost my respect to you. I don't give a damn even if our friendship is ended. And to the second type of friend, thank you for return my nice treat with respect. Thank you for being a supportive and good friend. I won't list out who's in the first or second type of friend. Mirror yourself, look back on the way you treat me as a friend and put yourself in whatever list you want.
Now whenever i saw a shooting star or accidently be in 11.11 p.m, i will wish for happiness and successful life. That's all i want. Dear God, i hope you'll grant my wish someday.